I consume for momentary distractions, and I am aware of it.

mybackyardlab
3 min readMay 11, 2022
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I consume more than I produce daily. Some of the consumption is necessary, but that part is a tiny percentage of what I consume. The other consumption is purely for distraction. I consume extra food to divert myself from pain, words to find answers to the big questions, and ideas hoping it will somehow change my life for the better. I consume things mostly to distract myself from the meaningless life.

I probably need less than 10% of what I use every day. I have no logical reasons to support my habit of consumption. It is purely for distraction, and I am entirely aware of it.

Should I change my ways? But if I do, I will lose the illusion that helps me keep going through the motion of life. Sure, I can shed my illusion and arrive at the ultimate truth or reality or whatever we are supposed to reach to find meaning from this aimless experience.

Does anyone of us know what we are trying to find? We are just shooting in the dark, going through trial and error. We stumble upon a momentary discovery to realize that it wasn’t a discovery at all. It was just another distraction, a reality we invented to keep our illusion alive. We don’t even know if that thing exists. We are all just shooting in the dark, going from one distraction to another until we have completed our life cycle.

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